Yesterday I literally felt crazy. Every fibre of me was nutso! On top of my daily 40mg of Celexa, I had to take a Clonazepam. I was shaking, irrational, crazy, manic, all over the page, sensory overload... bonkers. Thank goodness for prescription drugs!
I suffered from Post-partum depression. At 2 months post-partum, I finally went to my doctor for help. He started me off on 10mg of Celexa. We eventually worked our way up to 40mg. It was a long road to find a happy medium. I would still have some situational anxiety, so he prescribed me some Clonazepam. Some days Celexa is just not enough. Some times I will take 2 Clonazepam. I get totally fucked up for about an hour and then I crash. The high is awesome... the come-down, not so much.
My doctor, whom I generally dislike professionally, told me that he would put me on Celexa longer than the generally prescribed 2 months for post-partum depression. Yeah, he knew I was nuts and should have been on it way prior to having a baby.
I was on Celexa once around 2005-2007. I was experiencing major anxiety and depression over WhoreFace! She was ruining my life (but that's a whole other post). I decided to go off of it, because I hated being numb. Now... I welcome the numbness!
All I wanted yesterday to be numb! I could feel the craziness in every cell of my body. I just did not know how to deal. Finally, sometime after a 1 am bottle feeding, I calmed down.
Today was a new day.
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